*Excuse the pun but when I think back about my emotional rollercoaster times
trying to cope with cancer it was a nuts feeling!
The fear that came with the cancer often drove me in front of a mirror starring
at myself and asking: Am I going nuts?! This unbearable feeling of not knowing
often reflexed in my interpersonal dealings. The encounters with others from
family, friends, nurses and my students were nuts – often positive, some
arkward. The actions and reactions from my side as well as from others often
ended in impotent / powerless silent.